now it’s january

five finger punch

 

i keep thinking i’m nuts

 

i kind of am

 

** what is ‘nuts’ ? is it a squirrel? is it talking to god?

is it being proud of who you are? is it talking to the monster on your shoulder ? **

 

i keep staying in toxic places

 

so easy to not see progress

 

but i’m not running this time

 

this time ….

 

i think i’m on the right side of heaven

 

Always

il

moving

transition from what i ‘know’

to what

 

i ‘don’t know’

 

default

i did something wrong

 

no

 

you are ok

 

default

 

worry and doom

 

i am ok

 

it’s ok

 

default

 

my father hates me

 

no

 

 

it’s alcohol

 

he loves you

 

 

 

default

 

my brother hates me

 

contrary action

 

what others think of me is none of my business

 

*** neither is what i think of myself ***

 

Always

il